The Abyss

There are many times when I reflect on my life and the path that led me here and wonder exactly where am I going.  I feel as though I am in a bottomless abyss with no end in sight.  I am not sure exactly what I want to do with my life.  I remember when I first graduated high school and I had these dreams of maybe working in a library or a bookstore because of my love of books.  I attended the local community college here and took a few courses and found my love of insurance (that is medical insurance).  When I started working as an insurance agent years (yes, I said it) ago, I liked some aspects of it, but didn't like dealing with homeowners insurance.  But as far as the medical part of dealing with insurance I liked it.  The medical terminology, all of it.  I found what I wanted to do.  

I have been deciding on returning to the workforce, but I have no idea what I want to do.  I still enjoy medical insurance, but I don't really think that's what I want to do.  But the money in that field is so great, but the hours are basically the 7-3 or 9-5 and I am thinking of a third shift position so that I won't have to plan on daycare for the little one.

When I think of the dilemma I am in, sometimes I wonder if I made the right decision to stay home with my kids for the last few years instead of staying in the work force.  The thought of returning to work is daunting and a bit intimidating.  But I have never been one to back down from a challenge.  So my goal is to see if I can find a job at least part time by the summer or some free lance work that I can do from home for extra income.

Here I come world. . .  . . .